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Beautiful Disease Lyrics

SEATTLE HEAD
(Duff McKagan)

"This got its name from my Marshall head that was up in Seattle. I got this sound at the beginning, it's the scratching of the strings. [Co-producer] Noel Golden asked me where I got that sound, and I said, "It's my Seattle head." So the name just stuck. Lyrically, the song's about the love/hate relationship
I have with L.A." - Duff

When I was young I had dream
Movin' to the city, sight unseen
Nineteen years of age I packed up my bags
Hollywood was all the rage
I came to you in 1984
You showed me in, then you shut the door
It didn't take me long to learn to play the game
A kick in the head always feel the same


(chorus)
Los Angeles, you're a fucking whore
Hollywood, you're an open sore
I played it well, and I played it fast
Livin' slow was in the past
Chicks and drugs and gettin' burnt
Just a few of the things I learnt
Got sick and tired of being scared as hell
A wasted man, just a shell of myself
But that was then, and this is now
My pretty baby, I've changed somehow
(chorus2)
Los Angeles, you've lost your grip
Drugs and lies and whores suckin' dick


I don't know if I could do things differently
LA had me for so long
When I look I can see things differently
What does't kill me makes me strong
Los Angeles, I didn't sell my soul to you
Los Angeles, you thought you would kill me
You thought you could take me down
Fuck that, power to me

Sometimes it goes like this
Sometimes it's the only way, to learn it
A kick in the head

WHO'S TO BLAME
(Duff McKagan)

"It's about the breakup of Guns." - Duff


WHAT DID I DO TODAY?
SOME PEOPLE THINK I WENT AND THREW IT AWAY
BUT THAT WAS YESTERDAY
I CAN'T REMEMBER MUCH OF THAT ANYWAY

I WONDER WHO'S TO BLAME?
OR DOES IT REALLY MATTER MUCH ANYWAY?
OR IF WE STAYED THE SAME?
IF ANYONE OF US WOULD BE HERE TODAY..YEAH

I DON'T CARE ABOUT IT ANYMORE, SO TIRED OF THINKING IT THROUGH
I DON'T CARE ABOUT IT ANYMORE, WHO'S TO BLAME ME OR YOU?

I HAD SO MUCH FUN, WAS GOING TO LIVE SO FAST AND DIE VERY YOUNG
BUT I WAS 21, I'M SO GLAD I'M HERE TO SING THIS SONG YEAH

I WONDER WHO'S TO BLAME?
OR DOES IT REALLY MATTER MUCH ANYWAY?
OR IF WE STAYED THE SAME?
IF ANYONE OF US WOULD BE HERE TODAY YEAH

I DON'T CARE ABOUT IT ANYMORE, SO TIRED OF THINKING IT THROUGH
I DON'T CARE ABOUT IT ANYMORE, WHO'S TO BLAME ME OR YOU?
I DON'T CARE ABOUT IT ANYMORE. SO TIRED OF THINKING IT THROUGH
I DON'T CARE ABOUT IT ANYMORE, WHO'S TO BLAME ME OR YOU?

SUPERMAN
(Duff McKagan)

"I hold some things high and sacred, and making love is one of them. In real life, I'd love to be a woman's Superman, her only one." - Duff

FATE FINDS A WAY, OF PICKIN YOU UP WHEN YOU'RE DOWN
I REMEMBER EVERTHING, AND I KNOW FOR SURE
AIN'T LIKE IT WAS BEFORE, I KNOW I CAN SHUT THAT DOOR

(CHORUS)
I WANNA BE YOUR SUPERMAN
WON'T YOU GIVE ME YOU HAND
SO I CAN SHOW YOU

LET DOWN YOUR HAIR
AND MOVE ON OVER NEXT TO ME
I WANNA SEE YOU SKIN, BEAUTIFUL WHITE, SOFTAND LIGHT
WE CAN FORGET THE PAST, WE CAN HAVE TONITE AT LAST

(CHORUS)

(BRIDGE)
YOU CAN ALWAYS LEAN ON ME
YOU CAN DRESS ME UP TO WHATEVER YOUR VISION
OF A DREAM MAN IS
ON MY PRETTY BABY, CAN'T YOU SEE
I WANNA BE YOUR EVERYTHING

I REMEMBER YESTERDAY, IT'S A LONG WAYS AWAY
I DON'T KNOW JUST WHAT YOU'RE GONNA DO
BUT I ALWAYS WANNA BE RIGHT NEXT TO YOU
BUT I ALWAYS WANNA BE RIGHT NEXT TO YOU

(CHORUS)


SONG FOR BEVERLY
(Duff McKagan)

"My girlfriend, who was a model, tells me stories sometimes. The one she told about this girl Beverly was really eerie: She started modeling really young, and she started doing coke and then shooting dope, and she just disappeared. She was adopted, and she herself had a baby, a daughter. So I just started thinking about Beverly. It was this really odd and dark mystery to me: Where are you? Where's your daughter? Are you trying to find your own mother? And I wrote this song. But now she's reappeared. I hung out with her one day. She's got herself straight, and she's going to school, and her daughter's great. But the mystery of the song is sort of ruined." - Duff

WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SO HATEFUL?
WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SO SAD?
IS IT BECAUSE YOU GREW UP TO FAST?
DID SOMEONE BREAK YOUR HEART UP BAD?

(CHORUS)
YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL, YOU ARE IT'S TRUE

WHAT EVER HAPPENED TO YOU LATELY?
DID YOU GO OFF WITH THE PAINTED MAN?
DO YOU WONDER WHO'S YOUR MOTHER?
DON'T LET YOUR BABY GUESS WHO'S YOU

(CHORUS 2)
YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL, YOU ARE IT'S TRUE
IT'S YOU

YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL, YOU ARE IT'S TRUE
YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL, YOU ARE IT'S TRUE



PUT YOU BACK
(Duff McKagan, Izzy Stradlin)

"Izzy and I wrote this one. He rides his motorcycle everywhere; he just goes out into the desert with extra gas and water and supplies. He finds these trails that go to Mexico from Arizona, and he's gone for days. So he found a guy out there, a Mexican who was trying to go to L.A. The guy was lost; he was going north-east. Izzy put him on his bike, gave him a sandwich and water, and took him up to the highway. He gave him some money and said, "You wanna go that way -- you wanna go west, dude." I hope he made it." - Duff

YOU WALKED THE OCEAN
YOU CROSSED THE SEA
SANDS OF THE DESERT
SANDS BENEATH YOUR FEET

(CHORUS)
THEY WANNA PUT YA BACK DOWN
THEY WANNA PUT YA BACK DOWN
THEY WANNA PUT YA BACK DOWN
THEY'RE NOT GONNA LET YOU THROUGH

TIME TURNS TO HOURS
DAYS INTO WEEKS
STARS SEEM TO GUIDE HIM
INTO THE EAST

(CHORUS)

(BRIDGE)
DID YOU LEAVE ANYONE
YOUR MOTHER MUST BE MISSIN' HER SON
IS ANYBODY WAITIN' FOR YOU
OR IS THIS SOMETHIN' NEW?

LIVE WITHOUT MONEY
LIVE WITHOUT HOME
DIE WITHOUT WATER
SLOWLY, LOST I ROAM

(CHORUS)



SHINING DOWN
(AL BLOCH)

"This is an Al Bloch song. It was kind of a depressing story about a white-trash life with no way out. But this kid in the story is fighting his way out. And I reinterpreted it as, anybody can do that, get out of any situation. "Shinin' Down" sounds almost like you're talking about God, but it's any kind of inspiration. If somebody wants it to be God, great. Or it could be yourself, shining down." - Duff

SISTER'S IN THE OLD BARN, SLEEPING OFF A BIG STORM
BROTHER'S AT THE POOL HALL, THINKING ALL HIS BAD THOUGHTS
PAPA'S IN THE CELLAR, SNEAKING OFF A QUICK DRINK
AND GOD IS UP IN HEAVEN, NO ONE CARES WHAT HE THINKS

(CHORUS)
SHINING DOWN, SHINING DOWN

MAMA'S LIVING IN HER GRAVE, BURIED WITH THE FRYING PAN
I'M JUST SITTING ON THE PORCH, WAITING FOR THE MAILMAN
PAPA DOESN'T HAVE MUCH HOPE, HE WISHES THINGS WERE BETTER
WHEN I G ET A CHANCE TO LEAVE, IT'S GOING TO BE FOREVER

(CHORUS)
SHINING DOWN, SHINING DOWN YEAH

AT NIGHT SOMETIMES I TAKE A WALK, DOWN BY THE POWER LINES
SOMEWHERE I CAN BE ALONE, SIT AND SMELL THE OZONE
GOD SAYS DON'T YOU BE AFRAID HE CAN MAKE IT BETTER
IF I GET A CHANCE TO LEAVE, IT'S GOING TO BE FOREVER

SHINING DOWN, SHINING DOWN, SHINING DOWN, SHINING DOWN

MISSING YOU
(Duff McKagan, Michael Barragan)

"I don't even want to try to count how many of my best friends I've lost to heroin. This song was me finally being pissed off. The chorus says, "I won't be missing you." There's only so much you can do." - Duff

AT HOME ALONE, MY ETERNAL ATONEMENT
I'VE BEEN MISSIN' YOU
SO SICK AND TIRED, OF BEIN' FUCKED UP AND LIED TO
I HOPE YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE
I'VE SEEN YOU LONG, AND I'VE FELT YA STRONG
BUT NOW I CAN'T GET THROUGH
AND THEN YOU LIED, YOU WERE GETTIN' HIGH
I HOPE YOU'RE TURNIN' BLUE

(CHORUS)
AND IN THE NIGHT, WHEN I FELL ALRIGHT
I WON'T BE MISSIN' YOU
THEN YOU LIED, YOU WERE GETTIN' HIGH
I HOPE YOU'RE TURNIN' BLUE

(CHORUS 2)
ALL MY HEROES GONE
FACTS' DARKER THAN FICTION AS MY NIGHTMARE
CARRIES ON AND ON

(CHORUS)

I USED TO ASK YOU HOW LONG YOU WE'RE GONNA
CARRY ON
WHEN YOU LIED I KNEW YOU WERE GONE

(BRIDGE)

THE LINES WERE CLEARLY DRAWN
SAD MEMORIES OF YOU, SLOWLY GONE
THE WORLD WILL CARRY ON
WITHOUT YOU

(CHORUS 2)
(CHORUS)
AND NOW THAT YOU'RE GONE, I'M GONNA CARRY ON
THE LINES WERE CLEARLY DRAWN



HOPE
(Duff McKagan)

"It's about hope. There's fear in L.A., racial fear, fear of crime. This is a song about hope." - Duff

THE CLOWNS HAVE COME TO REST, THE JESTER'S SOLD HIS SOUL, THE WORLD HAS LOST ITS LAUGH,
HUMAN KIND IS TURNING COLD

IT'S TIME TO SAY YOUR GRACE, IT'S TIME TO CALL YOUR FRIENDS,
START YOUR LAUGHING INSTEAD OF CRYING CAUSE THE END IS NOWERE NEAR...YEAH

A MAN DIED OF FEAR TODAY, THEY SAY HE LOST HIS WAY
TIME BOMB IN CENTRAL PARK, DON'T GO OUT AFTER DARK

IT'S TIME TO SAY YOUR GRACE, IT'S TIME TO CALL YOUR FRIENDS
AND START YOU LAUGHING INSTEAD OF CRYING CAUSE THE END IS NOWHERE NEAR...YEAH
HEAVEN ONLY HOPES, HEAVEN ONLY KNOWS, TO SEE HER CHILDREN JUST LAUGHING,
NOT DYING FOR SOMEONE'S FAITH

HOPE IS WHAT SHE GAVE HER LOVE FOR
FEAR BECAUSE SHE'S BEEN ALONE BEFORE
FATE SO THAT YOU'D FIGHT A HOLY WAR, I STILL DON'T GET IT
HEAVEN ONLY HOPES

A CHILD WAS BORN TODAY, PURE INNOCENCE OF HEART
HOPE BRISTLES FROM HER SMILE, FATE LAIDENS IN THE DARK

IT'S TIME TO SAY YOUR GRACE, IT'S TIME TO CALL YOUR FRIENDS AND
START YOUR LAUGHING INSTEAD OF CRYING CAUSE THE END IS NOWHERE NEAR...YEAH
HEAVEN ONLY HOPES, HEAVEN ONLY KNOWS TO SEE HER CHILDREN JUST LAUGHING
NOT DYING FOR SOMEONE'S FAITH...DYING FOR SOMEONE'S FAITH...DYING FOR SOMEONE'S FAITH


HOLIDAY
(Al Bloch)

"This one's just about taking a mental holiday from the day-to-day grind. " - Duff

GOT A ACHING HEAD, WAKING UP THE DEAD
WRAPPED UP IN A SHROUD, FLOATING ON A CLOUD
TRYING TO CATCH SOME ZEES, BRAIN IS FULL OF BEE'S
MISTER, MISTER PLEASE, WON'T YOU PLEASE LEAVE ME BE

(CHORUS)
I'M ON HOLIDAY, I'M ON HOLIDAY

DREAMING OFF IN SPACE, TIME AND A PLACE
LIFE CALLS MY NAME, WON'T PLAY THE GAME
LITTLE JOY SLEEP BRINGS, TELEPHONE SINGS
ANSWERING MACHINE, WON'T YOU PLEASE KILL THE RING

(CHORUS 2)
I'M ON HOLIDAY, I'M ON HOLIDAY
LET'S ROCK. KIRT BLOCH

TIRED OF WAKING UP, COFFEE IN MY CUP
BRAIN IS SETTING SAIL, TODAY I CAN'T FAIL
WALKING WITH THE SNAKES, SWIMMING WITH THE SHARKS
HONEY, HONEY PLEASE, DON'T YOU LEAVE ME IN THE DARK

(CHORUS)

THEN AND NOW
(Duff McKagan, Paul Solger)

"This is the song about getting sober. My friend Paul Soldier helped me write it. We were in this old band called the Fartz, a punk rock band." - Duff

WHEN I FIRST SAW YOU BABY, YOU WERE GONE, SO
FUCKIN' GONE
THE SCENE WAS SET FOR ARMAGEDDON, AND YOUR
GRIP ON ME WAS STRONG

(CHORUS)
IF YOU SAW ME YESTERDAY, YOU WOULDN'T
RECOGNIZE MY FACE
IF YOU SAW ME YESTERDAY, YEAH YOU MIGHT'VE
RAN AWAY

SISTER UPTOWN, YOU'RE A METAPHOR FOR ALL LIFES
GREIF AND PAIN
BROTHER DOWNTOWN, SUCH A DEVIL, MAKE A SNAKE OUT
OF ANY MAN

(CHORUS)

(BRIDGE)
DON'T FEEL LIKE CRAWLIN' OUT OF MY CAGE
(I USED TO SAY)
ANOTHER LAME SONG AND DANCE ABOUT A THING
FROM MY PAST, (I HOPE IT'S NOT BORING YOU)
AND IN THE END I LOST A FEW FRIENDS
SO I GOT UP, GOT UP AND I RAN AWAY


DRUGS PARTY IN 526 IS WHERE I GOT MY KICKS
BUT WHERE ARE TODAY?
DEAD AND GONE, THE DAMAGE IS DONE, I GOT NOTHIN'
ELSE TO SAY

(CHORUS)

RAIN
(Duff McKagan)

"It's about finding somebody to take care of, and I've found that with my daughter." - Duff

AIN'T NO FUN, HAVING NO ONE
I'M SO GONE AIN'T NEVER COMING BACK
CRAMP MY STYLE, CAN'T FIND MY MIND
A PIECE OF ME JUST FELL OFF THE TRACKS

GOT STUCK ONE NIGHT, ON THE RUN, IT CAME TO ME LIKE A LOADED GUN
I GOT SCARED OF MY SHADOW, DON'T WANT TO HIDE FROM THE FEAR NO MORE...NO

I FALL DOWN, NO ONE TO PICK ME UP
NO ONE TO PICK ME UP
I THANK YOU GOD FOR HEARING ME, ONE RAINY NIGHT I WAS ON MY KNEES
YOU SENT THE GIRL OF MY DREAMS, AND I'M THE ONE FOR HER IT SEEMS

(CHORUS)
LET THE RAIN COME DOWN ON ME, LET THE RAIN COME DOWN ON YOU TOO.
LET THE RAIN COME DOWN ON ME, LET THE RAIN COME DOWN ON YOU TOO.

I FALL DOWN, NO ONE TO PICK ME UP NO
I FALL DOWN, NOW THE RAIN POUNDS DOWN ON ME, THE RAIN POUNDS DOWN ON ME
YEAH...YEAH
IT WAS SO HARD BUT NOW IT'S PLAIN TO SEE
AT LONG LAST, I'VE GOT THE WOMAN OF MY DREAMS
LET THE RAIN

I'VE SEEN WAR LIVE THROUGH MY PAIN, SAVED MY LIFE FROM A BITTER END
I CAN'T FIND MY SHADOW
AIN'T GONNA HIDE FROM THAT FEAR NO MORE

I LET THE RAIN COME DOWN ON ME, LET THE RAIN COME DOWN ON YOU TOO.
LET THE RAIN COME DOWN ON ME, LET THE RAIN COME DOWN ON YOU TOO.

BEAUTIFUL DISEASE
(Duff McKagan, Eddie Hewlett)

"After I got out of the hospital and got sober, I just kind of lost it in a good way for a while. It's like when you're 18, and you're questioning everything. I feel like I was doing that again, but from the perspective of someone who'd been through some shit and knew a little more." - Duff


I THINK I'M GONNA FREAK OUT, THROW OUT MY
SANITY BLAME IT ON MY LACK OF EDUCATION, FORCED SOBRIETY
GONNA WHIP IT OUT MY DOUBLE BARREL AND PLAY
RUSSIAN ROULETTE WITH ONE
WHEN I WIN, I'M GONNA PULL MY SKIN OFF AND
GIVE IT TO SOMEONE


(CHORUS)
BEAUTIFUL DISEASE

UGLY IS SO BEAUTIFUL WHEN YOU HIT IT WITH A STICK
POLITICAL CORRECTIVENESS IS SUCH A SHAM, IT'S MAKIN'
ME SICK
SOMETIMES I GOTTA ASK MYSELF WHY A KICK IN THE
HEAD FEELS GOOD
THE MORE THEY TRY TO BEAT ME DOWN, THE MORE
I THINK IT'S UNDERSTOOD THAT

(CHORUS)

(BRIDGE)
OPINIONS ARE LIKE ASSHOLES, AND YOU SMELL LIKE
AND OPEN SEWER
I LOST MY MIND, 30 TIMES, CAUSE OF BULLSHIT
PULLED ON TOUR
IT'S MY WAR, AND I WANT IT, RIGHT NOW


(CHORUS)

HERE WE GO ONCE AGAIN
IT'S TIME TO TAKE MY LIBRIUM
SPIDERS CRAWLIN' UP THE WALLS
WILL YOU CATCH ME IF I FALL?

ROUND AND ROUND AND ROUND HE GOES
WHERE HE STOPS, NOBODY KNOWS



MEZZ
(Duff McKagan)

"I read a lot of books, mostly nonfiction. And I don't watch a lot of TV, but I like my Seattle sports teams. I've also seen the Cirque du Soleil perform a bunch of times. There are lines in this song about a lot of those things I've read about or seen. It's like, "God, I wish I could have been there. I wish I could have done that." These are things I think everybody wishes, in some form -- they wish they could be there." - Duff

I WANNA BE THE WORLDS BEST LOVER
I WANNA BE ON EVERY COVER
I WANNA BE THE FLYING MAN IN THE CIRQUE DE SOLIEL
BUT I'M ME, AND THAT'S ALL I'LL EVER BE
I WANNA BE LIKE SERPICO, OR A FREEDOM FIGHTER DOWN
IM MEXICO, A BLACK MAN IN THE FIFTIES SOUTH, SEE
WHAT FAKE WHITE FREEDOM WAS (IS?) ALL ABOUT
I WANNA `RECON' IN VIETNAM, SHOOT A BALL LIKE
GARY PAYTON, I WANNA TALK TO JESUS CHRIST,
A-BOMB THE EXTREME RIGHT
BUT I'M ME, AND THAT'S ALL I'LL EVER BE.


(CHORUS)
IF IT WAS UP TO ME, I'D BE THOSE THINGS AND SO
MUCH MORE
IF IT WAS ME, I'D TALK TO GOD AND KICK
DOWN EVERY DOOR


I REALLY WANNA SAVE THE PLANET, AND ALL WARS
AND DESTRUCTIVE HABITS, I WANNA RAISE HELL WITH
THE C.D.C, SEE IF ALL IS BEING DONE ABOUT
THAT FUCKIN DISEASE, I WANNA BE LIKE RANDY JOHNSON,
PLAY GUITAR LIKE MICK RONSON, WANNA
SET MY SIGHTS ON ART COLLECTIONS, GIVE HOMELESS
PEOPLE A NEW DIRECTION
BUT I'M ME, AND THAT'S ALL I'LL EVER BE
AND I SEE, THERE'S SOME THINGS I DON'T NEED.


(CHORUS)

SOLO

IF IT WAS UP TO ME
I'D BREAK DOWN EVERY WALL
LET THE POOR HAVE IT ALL
BAN ALL WAR, IF YOU PLEASE
AND END DISEASE


(CHORUS)


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